i'm a fighter

You know that feeling? When you're just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation. Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right either. And you're tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And you just want someone to be there and tell you it's okay. But no one's going to be there. And you know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can fix you. But you're tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, you just want it to be easy. To be simple. To be helped. To be saved. But you know you won't be. But you're still hoping. And you're still wishing. And you're still staying strong and fighting, with tears in your eyes. You're fighting.

i'm a fighter

You know that feeling? When you're just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation. Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right either. And you're tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And you just want someone to be there and tell you it's okay. But no one's going to be there. And you know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can fix you. But you're tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, you just want it to be easy. To be simple. To be helped. To be saved. But you know you won't be. But you're still hoping. And you're still wishing. And you're still staying strong and fighting, with tears in your eyes. You're fighting.

I guess that many differences really do matter and opposite poles may attract but could never be stable consistently for so long

Your like a bad habit! that I can't get rid of.. I should just walk away.... But I Can't! Your driving me crazy! I find myself screaming @ the top of my lungs, "WTF" get out of my head, but is no use, am lost with out you! I need to escape from this hell that I created.. But when I finally manage to get away! You alway...s find away to make me want to go back! Some one help me please!!!

Hold me now!

Hold me now
and stay
right here
and believe
what i can believe
cuz i don't
wanna be alone
anymore
its late
but i don't want to sleep
can we talk
so i don't have to think
and i want u to know
that i need you now!
yeah now!

Am depressed...that all

Am depressed but not suicidal.. because i couldn't possibly make myself care enough that I'm alive to summon up the energy to off myself, not that i could.. You can wish for death but its like wishing for sleep, a sense of exhaustion so profound that your whole body aches, and just as sleep does some exhausted nights death eludes you, it is right there you feel it but it wont come close enough and if you have the energy to cry thats why....

Trapped

At times I feel as if the world out side is scrawling to the walls of my room,

looking for me

in search , for me

I lay in my bed I cant move

I'm sinking,

the bed is swallowing me

I'm inside my skull it is a little cave

and I curl upside down

and for once

I feel safe